As much as I have always loved succeeding at what I do, being good at the tasks given to me, and receiving praise/success from my supervisors/co-workers etc… I know more than ever that spending as many moments as I can with my children is where I am currently called to be!
Granted – it’d be nice to have more income and “flexibility” in the budget. It’d be nice to not have certain people in my life look at me as those I’m a “lazy pile” or slacker or whatever else they’ve chosen to call my “choice” in life. At least I know that its just as hard of work if not harder spending all day alone in a house with your own flesh & blood (basically all your best & worst qualities appear in your child/children for you to daily witness).
But all in all I would have to say that for the first time in a very long time I have not longed for the weekends, and when Thursday night rolls around I’m not mentally computing how much limited time I will have to get everything I need to done & still be able to spend time with Alexa before starting a new week all over again.
Instead I have spent the weeks slowly checking things off my over 2 page long to-do list as I spend time realizing what an amazing “big girl” my Alexa is! Instead of being short & snappy with her for a few hours before putting her to bed, I have been able to really see & know where she’s coming from when she cries or whines. Instead of trying to figure out if she truly has a reason for being upset or if she’s just whining for the sake of it, I can know what she actually needs & how to help her get it.
Its an amazing feeling of peace with no stress, no worry, and no being high-strung all the time. Sure I’ve had my moments these weeks where I’ve thought to myself “this child is driving me crazy” but its typically for about a split second before I’m giving her a time-out or sending her to her room to whine by herself. Its been great to help her build things out of her blocks, sing the alphabet, cook with her, have “tea” with her, color together and take care of her babies. I really wouldn’t trade a moment of our weeks together for anything.
The first Tuesday at home Alexa came with me to my doctor’s appointment. The doctor let her help “measure baby” and she got to hold the speaker while we listened to the baby’s heartbeat. It was truly amazing to see the look of awe on her face as she loved every minute of it. She couldn’t help but tell everyone we saw for the next few days about how she helped the doctor check on baby. :)
I’m not sure how the next few weeks will go before baby arrives & makes things a tad busier for us, but I do know I’m going to keep the worry out of our lives & enjoy every last minute I have alone with Alexa! It truly is an amazing experience to be able to watch her mind work & see her learn & grow each day.
So glad you're able to enjoy being at home! Hope all goes well these next few weeks!
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